Dear Readers,
I've have been compiling these stories for the last few months. As an introduction to my new blog and my new home, I give lots to read and digest over the Thanksgiving Holiday. Hopefully, with friends, family and a belly full of good food and lots to be thankful for.
One of my promises to you when I first started writing
in the blog format is that I would be honest with you and share the good, the
bad, the excellent, and the ugly, so you would get a real sense of how I was
feeling, as a person with a disability who lives on her own .
Even though this blog is completely new and I am
starting a new chapter in my life I am still going to write with those
principles in mind. Today's entry is kind of like a poem.
It is called "I feel like a Butterfly".
So here it is.....
Like a butterfly
I know I need to spread my wings
To be open to possibilities and opportunities for
myself.
I am excited for this new chance to spread my wings.
But like a butterfly I want to fold my wings back
together.
And go back to the familiar although I know this is
not possible
Like a butterfly I am excited for new experiences to
come my way.
Like a butterfly that goes from one flower to the
next.
But I feel very delicate and fragile like they are.
However, I know with your love, support and guidance
you will all help me to spread my wings to the best of my ability.
I want to thank my grandparents, parents, and my dad's
friends for helping me move smoothly into this transition.
Even though i am very fragile right now as I go
through all these changes, I finally have a house I call my own.
...The
Fragile Butterfly
"The
Inner War"
Sometimes I feel I am dealing with a war,
whether it be in my body, trying to be loose while feeling extremely
tight, fighting that battle or talking to people Who don't like the way I do
things. Living that type of war can be very emotionally taxing.
Especially when you have to tell the same person over and over again; I
often feel like I am talking to a brick wall in both the physical and the
social situations that I am faced with.This can be very frustrating and very
tiring. How do I get through it? Sometimes I still wonder, and sometimes
I want to give up; especially if it's been a bad day, but I have my spiritual
outlet, my dance outlet and my yoga outlet, that together, help me find peace
within the ever crazy circumstances of the week.
"The Sitting Port de bras"
As most of you know, I love to dance. One of the
components that I love about dance is the sitting Port de bras. Even though I love
integrated dance and having to create my own movements to accomplish what other
dancers are doing to get the same feeling. I like the sitting Port de bras because
I don't have to change anything. We are all at the same level. We are all
enjoying the simple movements, nothing has to be changed. It is very simple,
but it is something I can do and just be able to dance.
"The
Exploration of Dance"
Dance is an exploration, of the minute you step on the
dance floor you are exploring the history of dance, by what your teachers tell
you has been passed down from generations. It is an exploration of how
to move your body in certain patterns. It is an exploration of creativity
if you are a choreographer. That is why I love dance because you can always
strive to be better than you were before. One of my friends said, "Dancers can always improve, even the best." This is why I think dance is
really an exploration.
Finally the last exploration part of dance is your
spirit. If you don't use your spirit while dancing and explore movement through
that way, in my opinion, you are not truly dancing. So there's an
exploration of the mind, body and spirit every time you step on the dance
floor.
Something you may not know about me or find surprising
is that I absolutely love country music and for the longest time I didn't
understand why I did but a few days ago that all changed. I couldn't do
much because my wheelchair was broken so I decided to listen to some music.
After listening to some of my favorite country songs I realized why I liked it
so much. I like it because a lot of country artists are down to earth. Many even write their own songs and they often are about over coming
challenges, freedom and relationships and are often sung by a cute guy about my
age!! So that is why whenever I am having a bad day I often turn to
country. While I am on the topic of country I would like to thank my dad
for getting me and my friend Hannah, tickets to the Luke Bryant concert. It was amazing! I would
also like to thank Hannah and Amy for coming over while my chair was broken.
You guys are the best.
In honor of Thanksgiving I am thankful for a
chair that now works, my family and friends and country music. What are
you thankful for?
Happy Thanksgiving to all.
